I kinda want a career, I kinda want to lose weight, I kinda want to do that, or I kinda wish that would happen. If you kinda want something you will seldom be successful in getting it. Kinda is the informal way of saying “kind of” and you won't find it in dictionaries. I suggest you take it out of your vocabulary as well. You don’t want to kinda hope, do, try, or wish for anything.
Success is ALL about commitment. The definition of commitment is
an agreement or pledge to do something. The key word in that definition is “DO.” It didn’t say kinda do or kinda finished. You don’t kinda get somewhere. You either got there or you didn’t.